My D`JuVe ZoNe

My First Week
In July…

*look at
the agenda* checking for my “to do list” for this week… hmm… nothing
particular, just the same routines…  

*look at
the highlight sentences… at the bottom of the page*

ups wait… *surprised*
ooowwwhhh… I forgot to make the report of my last negotiation… I’m so damn busy
with my book… heeee

*sit
properly at my chair*
*open my
laptop*
*do some
internet setting*
*start to
browse*
*stand up n
eat my breakfast*
*grab a
drink*
*start to
chat with my collages*
….

Ehem…ehem…
Heeeiiii… !!!! start working Dude…

Heeee… ups sorry…

See yaa…

So why do I
choose Green for my fav colour… 

Green reflected
peaceful for me…
Green makes
me feel so relief…
Green brings
inspiration for me…
Green reflected
religion motif…
Green is
life it colours nature…
Green seems
so soft…

So…

Why I chose
my blog background with purple then ???

But Its
better than I chose Polka dot… right ??? 

Every
feelings, every reflections, every point of view… may easily change by the mistery
of  the four words “L” faxtor… hmm… and
its just happening to me, growing stronger actually… All I have to do, just
wondering what I refer to… after concerning the main object… and then *click*
it would change

ur

life pattern in just a blink…

Its not the
first time, but its brings the biggest impact, maybe at two or three last accessions
I didn’t expect this much… but this one make me see right to the source… now it
just lead me to one conclusion… SHE IS SPARTACUS…!!! Stunning and more… its marvellous…

Just wondering… how come I tolerate Sushi inside
my fragile stomach… is it magical… heeeee…

First
blog… first share…

Mungkin
setelah sekian lama banyak banget email yang masuk dengan satu subjek
“bla…bla…bla… has updated friendster blog”…  

for my
first impression when I read most of the writting…!!! nih apaan segh… ko
isinya orang pada curhat mulu… bla…bla…bla… mungkin bedanya yang ini
ditulis gak di buku (ket-diary) dan seteleh itu di publish (n let everyone put
comments), until the second opinion cross my mind… duwhhh repot ya bacanya…
panjang aja… hmmm… tar degh lieurr eeeuuuyyy… 

But… akhir2
ini kenapa gw interest banget buat baca celotehan cyber ini ya ???… bahkan sometimes
gw coba berpikir selayaknya sang penulis *walau masih bingung kenapa orang tuw
enjoy banget tulisannya di publish, bahkan ada loch yang sampe curhat berat di
blog nya… ko bisa ya ???…* (menulari gw juga negh kayanya dengan tulisan
perdana enih… hehehe… jadi ikutan curhat) 

*for
intermezzo*

Last post
yang gw baca berupa sebuah analisa… analisa dari orang yang penting banget
dalam hidup gw… to be frankly (hehehe akhirnya tau juga artinya) banyak
banget tulisan n pola pikirnya yang untill now give a lot inspiration to chose
my path…

*end – back
to my story*

Ada satu
hal yang masih coba gw resapin sampai hari ini… related banget sama sifat gw… setelah
gw coba tuk merenung sedikit… sepanjang malam ini di jalan Saharjo *trus mampir
circle K* sambil nikmatin angin malam dibawah terpaan angin bercampur debu
jalan*… gw terus aja bertanya sama diri gw sendiri “how can I improve my self”…
setelah kegegalan gw yang palink akhir, gw coba tuk mengambangkan pola piker
gw, dengan satu ide bahwa “this is me, one packet me, containing my plus n
minus” hamper sama dengan klausul baku yang bersifat “take it or leave it”…  

But now… gw
sadar banget “I really have to evaluate my life” *what a waste 6 month… hiks
T_T*… gw harus menyadari ini… karena this not just for me, but for my future,
and my whole family (included future family)… how come since the last moment of
my evaluation time, till now *when I walked* I haven’t realize kalo sebenarnya
masih banyak yang harus gw tata ulang dalam konsep hidup gw yang sekarang… *God…
the impact of my last hurt is so huge*… beberapa bulan terakhir ini, gw bener2
terlalu emosional buat menyikapi banyak hal… *yelling at my self* “come on Joe…
loe bener2 harus mengembalikan elo yang dulu…!!!!” How come I feel so stuck in
the middle of my life story… how come u only see something to large, the may
impact to your focus… “try to look straight bro… try to feel which land u are
standing right now…” *the second yelling voice on my mind which jump to my
brain*… Bener2 sampe kapan gw harus lost most of my courage so I become so
paranoia…

Sayangnya… Gw
bener2 blum bisa ambil kesimpulan apa2 hari ini… but still I try to gain every
element in every second of my live… masih banyak langkah yang harus gw tapak
tuk bias terus belajar… wish one day I can find my path, I really wanna share
all of it for the happiness my truly… truly… truly… me, family, and love…  

So… is it
the time to pursuit my destiny ???…